Do you really hate yourself that much?
(c) Six Feet Under

I think it's more David then Nate. I mean, I'm more a control freak, who's so afraid of being out of ordinaries, then the one, who runs away, but comes back for somebody. I just can't. there's just no coming back. and it's a big deal to keep everything in place, to be polite, to be normal. and for now it's more about being 'artificial' then being free.