I'm happy. totaly. compeletly.
the first time for a long, long time.
just to know I'm all alone on my own.
but I have few people to catch me when I fall.
it's stupid and childish to let myslef believe they care, to let myself belive they can be trusted.
but for one day in this new life can do such a stupid thing.
I can wear this silly smile for awhile.
to be black and blue the next morning, to be cautious again.
to be afraid of being such a dumb, cynical and grim person my entire life.
fuck it.
fuck it all.