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I can't fight the feeling I'm working and living in one of the Stephen King's hotels. something like Overlook ('Shine') or Delphine ('1408'). it's creapy. but I also can't fight a feeling I'm living up all the tv-series I've watch.
I need to improve my English immediatly. and I need some good sleep and rest. and the emotional refreshing. I mean, shout out that they're 'stupid people and I hate 'em'. and when continue to smile and be a nice girl.
it smels pretty good here: food, places, people. it's completly diferent when back in Russia.

here's a paradox: I wanna kill girls cuz they don't want to speak English only, but I'm tired to speak and write and think in English on my own. I think, that's bacause I'm ashamed of my grammar and accent (and I can't remember 'smart' words when I need them). it's too deep inside me. I'll try to break this wall too. 'the London Bridge is falling down'.

Alice, I want you here! you'd understand me, share my feelings and interests. and I'm starting to hate the feeling that it's not comfortable here because of atmosphere between me and Dasha and Liza.

btw our today's supervisor kept calling Beth Ellie (short from Elizabeth). and it seemed too right and nice... and I've just remembered that it's because of Eloiza Howking. crap. it's a psychosis. I'm seing and hearing and finding things from tv everywhere. yeah, I'm nuts, I know.