there's a rule: people are unreasonably cruel especially to those they love most. they hurt & get hurt back. it goes on & on & on until families break up, lovers split up or friends get left behind. it's unfair. it's the thing that keeps me from having family, lovers or friends. and it's the thing that gets me into the same kind of shit every time, cuz anything that starts as 'nothing' turns into 'something' very quickly & the prompted rule pops up & starts working.